Dark.Half

As glances go,

You might not know,

Of the fiendish,diabolical self in tow.

Looks are as far as innocence goes,

Treachery and deceit are what compose,

The mind, is a dangerous thing,

Intangible, yet a terrible sting.

Taken in with a charming smile,

It is one of many a wile.

Trust not, the helping hand,

Extended with motive, it's all planned.

In everything,seeking a chance to gain,

He doesn't flinch, to inflict pain.

Subtle,manipulation, you'll never know,

To his whims and fancies, he'll make you bow.

I fear not, a raging storm or the wrath of gods,

Nor to fight, against all odds.

What i dread instead,

Is a serene face that doesn't betray,

A raging battle, between night and day.

Of many a peril that i've faced,

None so daunting,

As confronting, my mind with darkness laced.

With every doubt, a foothold he gains,

With uncertainty and fear, hope he drains.

On and on, like a vinyl song,

Until i can no longer tell,

 right from wrong.

He pushes me aside, a merciless laugh,

Rising, over-whelming, i've lost to him,

My Dark Half.

Vision.Distorted.

I am lost and yet I don’t care,
To you my secrets I lay bare.
I find myself drowning in your memory,
Like a whispering brook,
Thoughts of you, flood my head,
I need to know, but I’m too afraid to ask
I catch myself smiling now and again,
Wishing to meet you at the end of every lane.
I’m smiling all the time now,
I feel so incomplete without you, how,
I need know, but I’m too afraid to ask,
Despite so many dreams to chase,
I can’t help stop, remember your face.
I find reasons to look into your eyes,
I feel the need to think of you all the time,
I look for reasons why my mind goes in search,
Of memories that I have of you,
I need to know but I’m too afraid to ask.
I feel so warm inside,
Thinking of all the times I spent by your side.
I play with moonbeams,
Cuddle dew drops in my head.
Each dawn, since I met you,
Seems brighter than the rest.
Ur voice as soft as snow,
It drives mad why,
I need to know but I’m too afraid to ask.
I am lost and yet I don’t care,
I keep searching for answers,
But they aren’t there.
Memories of you, keep playing in my head,
Again and again, those paths I like to tread.
I act like a fool, people stare,
Filled with your thoughts I just don’t care.
I find reasons to smile now,
I’ve missed that for quiet some while now.
All of a sudden I seem to think,
Of black less than pink.
Ur smile makes my heart skip beats,
Your scent lingers faint yet so strong, why,
I need to know but I’m too afraid to ask,
I never thought I’d find myself here again
But I can’t forget your face,
I look for reasons but there aren’t any,
I need you, but I can’t take this leap again,
I need to know but I’m too afraid to ask
My heart beats faster when I catch sight of your name,
I can’t seem to trust what has happened to me,
Everytime I try to get back upon my feet,
I fall harder than the last time;
Your name seems etched in my head,
It draws itself out each time I’m down, why,
I need to know but I’m too afraid to ask.
It will take everything for me,
To trust myself with you,
I can’t seem to bring myself,
To take this leap of faith,
I am not what you think I am,
Knowing my truth will shatter you,
This fear keeps me from being with you;
I don’t have it in me to fall again,
I’m broken beyond repair.
But yet when I think of u,
I can’t pull myself back,
Everything seems so much simpler,
Life begins to look bright, why,
I need to know but I’m too afraid to ask.
Is this what I want,
I do not know,
My head is a windmill of turmoil,
To bring the darkness in me onto you,
I can’t bear.
I would only eclipse you,
With the misery that is inside of me,
Realisation dawns upon me,
I’ve got to let it be,
You deserve much more than this,
I can’t give fate a miss,
Sooner or later it shall hit,
Once before, I dreamed this dream,
I fell farther down,
Than I’ve ever been.
I thought I was too afraid to ask,
Now it dawns on me,
I don’t deserve to ask……………

Spirit.Endure........

When dreams turn to dust.
What do you do?
When all that you ever want, crumbles in your hands.
What do you do?
When you realise what you desire the most, can never come to be.
What do you do?
When fate is sealed and misery looks you in the eye.
What do you do?
When your broken and alone and know that help will never come.
What do you do?
When the cacophony of your doom whispers in your ears.
What do you do?
When your spirit is crushed, and falls upon itself.
What do you do?
When that which you cherish, leaves you forever.
What do you do?
When stark reality, mocks you in the face.
What do you do?
When dark eternity, pulls you in.
What do you do?
When hope dies.
What do you do?
When life ceases to have meaning.
What do you do?
When breathing becomes ragged.
What do you do?
When your heartbeat becomes a burden.
What do you do?
Will you wait for death, to come end your pain?
Or will you stand up to fate and show you aren’t done.
When dreams turn to dust,
Blow it like sand.
When all that you ever want, crumbles,
Wipe it off your hand.
When you realise your desires will never come to be,
Those desires aren’t meant for thee.
When your fate is sealed and misery looks you in the eye,
Kick back and fight, don’t give up and die.
When your broken and alone and know that help will never come,
Heal yourself and in time your pain will numb.
When the cacophony of your doom, whispers in your ears,
Laugh out loud, and make yourself, doom’s worst fears.
When your spirit is crushed,
Hold on till even endurance to its limits is pushed.
When that which you cherish, leaves you forever,
Go forth and look, ties with it you can sever.
When stark reality, mocks you in the face,
Grin back and prove you can still set the pace.
When dark eternity pulls you in,
Rush into it, for in this game only those with valour win.
When hope dies,
With your prayers revive.
When life ceases to have meaning,
With your persistence define.
When breathing becomes ragged,
Look up and smile,
When your heartbeat becomes a burden,
Remember it’s for a while.
Infinite are the choices to make,
Everything that fate hands out,
There’s something more from it to take.